Friday, May 20, 2011

Maria TallChief

Born Elizabeth Marie Tall Chief to an Osage Nation father, she became an eventually well-known ballerina. She was the first American Prima Ballerina.  She was also the first American to dance at the Paris Opera and has danced with the Paris Opera Ballet, the Ballet Russe, and the Balanchine Ballet Society. In 1947 Maria began dancing with the New York City Ballet until her retirement in 1965. Soon after she founded the Chicago City Ballet and remained it’s artistic director for many years. Since 1997 she has been an adviser in the Chicago dance schools and continues to astound future dancers with her always-ahead-of-her-skill abilities and was featured in a PBS special from 2007-2010.

Monday, May 9, 2011

The (e)X Factor


I was thinking today about acceptance.  Not just accepting others, or situations but accepting your self.  As you are, as a work in progress.  While pondering how difficult it is to love self, while being able to love so many others, I started thinking about the 'exes' in my life.  Ex-friend, ex-lover, ex-significant other, ex-ally, ex-associates, etc. 

What I started to realize is that I hate the term 'ex'.  I hate it because it makes it seem as if those people who are no longer in your life, are insignificant.  Like they never mattered.  It simply isn't true. 

The process of being Born takes time, and in that time we go through many changes.  We transition in stages and all of those 'exes' are important in this process.  We grow from others, we learn from others and we become who we are by the seasons we endure throughout our lifetime.  And sometimes, in order for a door to be open to the greatest, the latest has to leave it open on the way out.

I'm not big on having regrets in life, I feel like I have learned a great deal from the people who are no longer in my life.  I am better because of them and willfully, they are better as well.  The pain is intense when you lose someone you care for, yet that pain has a birth record.  And a death record.  The love is infinite and eternal.  The pain fades.  So although I have lost many (friends, significant others, lovers, family) in my life, I do not mourn for them because love doesn't mean unhappiness.  It remains with you and you are allowed to keep it as long as you like.  You are able to take that infinite, eternal energy and use it to your advantage.  You are able to BE whatever you want because of it...


Is Love so fragile?

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Red Cloud

'Perhaps one of the most capable warriors from the Oglala Lakota (Sioux) tribesmen ever faced by the US Military, Makhpiya Luta, his Sioux name, led his people in what is known as Red Cloud’s War. This battle was for the rights to the area known as Powder River Country in Northern Wyoming and Southern Montana. Eventually he led his people during their time on reservation.'


'Geronimo (Chiricahua: “one who yawns”; often spelled Goyathlay or Goyahkla in English) was a prominent Native American leader of the Chiricahua Apache who defended his people against the encroachment of the US on their tribal lands for over 25 years. While Geronimo said he was never actually a chief, he was rather a military leader. As a Chiricahua Apache, this meant he was also a spiritual leader. He consistently urged raids and war upon many Mexican and later U.S. groups. Geronimo eventually went on to marry 6 wives, an Apache tradition. He staged what was to be the last great Native American uprising, and eventually moved to a reservation.'

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Crazy Horse

'With a name in his tribe, Lakota: Thasuka Witko, that literally means “His-Horse-is-Crazy”, this Native American was actually born with the name: Cha-O-Ha meaning in Lakotan, “In the Wilderness”, and he was often called Curly due to his hair. In the Great Sioux War of 1876, Crazy Horse led a combined group of nearly 1,500 Lakota and Cheyenne in a surprise attack against General George Crook’s force of 1,000 English men and 300 Crow and Shoshone warriors. The battle, though not substantial in terms of lives lost, nearly prevented Crook from joining up with General Custer, ensuring Custer’s subsequent defeat at the Battle of Little Bighorn. Crazy Horse went on to oppose the US Government in their various decisions on how to handle Indian affairs.'

Monday, May 2, 2011

Axial Tilt

"I am amazed at this spring,
this conflagration of green fires lit on the soil of the earth,
this blaze of growing,
these sparks that puff in wild gyration,
Faces of people streaming across my gaze."

Because it is my b-day, I decided to reflect on the last year...the ups, downs, in betweens...the cycle, the balance, the life.  I started to consider what I had gained, what I had lost and where I had grown.  I'm happy to say that I'm good with the past year, I'm good with myself.  In some ways I have made great progress and in some, I have regressed.  I continue to evolve and in that never ending cycle, I find perfection...I become whole.
 My past year:

The fire inside me was ignited and I began to love myself
I fell in love
I had my heart broken
I survived chemo
I became a better mom
I learned
I loved a lot
I almost lost everything
I finally saw life's true worth
I hurt someone
I was hurt
I was loved for long enough to know I deserve that
I struggled
I was victorious
I grew
I discovered what I'm made of
I affected a child positively
I was affected by others
I lost some friends
I gained some family
I found my backbone
I revealed my vulnerability to a couple of folks
I listened to my children
I trusted
I honored myself
I took less than I deserved
I trusted my instinct
I doubted myself
I was a loyal friend, lover, sister
I buried a brother
I made myself proud
I felt ashamed
I had no regrets...

"In this life we cannot always do great things, but we can do small things with great love"